We all have shitty lives

In all my years on the planet, I have NEVER met anyone who is truly happy.  I've met a lot of people who say they're happy and even act happy but once I get to know them, their underlying misery always sneaks out eventually. 


This isn't to say they don't have happy moments or that they're partly or even mostly happy.  But the truth is there is no real, lasting happiness on this planet.  Because let's face it: life sucks. 


It's not easy and though we can have moments or even periods of happiness, a lot of it is really shitty.


There's nothing wrong with that.  What's wrong is that the world lies to us and makes us think life is supposed to be great, and if it isn't then there's something wrong with us.


Case in point, look at all those on anti-depressants.  According to the CDC about 11% of people in the US are on some type of anti-depressant.  While that may not seem like a lot, they also say only about one third of people who are severely depressed are on medication.  That brings the number up to more like a third of the population (Source: http://www.cdc.gov/nchs/data/databriefs/db76.htm).


Now why is that?  Could it be in part that we have this false idea that life is supposed to be all roses and sunshine, and if it's not then we're "sick." 


Once we drop this notion that the world is supposed to be great and accept that often life is shitty then we can actually start feeling better about our lives.


Why?  Because we'd stop thinking there was something wrong with us.  We'd stop believing everyone else has it easier than us and that we have a problem.


Yes we might have problems and that's another story.  But one of our problems is not that our life sucks and no one else's does.  Because life in general can be pretty shitty.  The end.

If you're on drugs then your problem is not that you're suicidal

A lot of people have argued with me on this one.  Drugs and suicide go hand in hand.




Wrong!




I was never on drugs and I was absolutely suicidal.  I know others who were too. 




In fact I'd argue that if you're on drugs then being suicidal is NOT your problem.




Drugs are your problem and feeling suicidal is a side effect of that.




So yes you may call a hotline and go in rehab and be on suicide watch.  I get that and if you need these things then great!  Go for it.




But understand that you wanting to kill yourself as a side effect of putting poison in your body. 




When you do drugs you are letting something outside yourself control you.  You are no longer making decisions - the drugs are.




This is an important distinction to make, because if you go through with dying you may do so without being in your proper mind so you really can't discern whether it's the right choice for you or not. 




Again, I'm not here to tell you what to do.  But I am telling you that you owe it to yourself to make that decision with a clear head.  After all it's rather permanent.

The world is trying to kill you!

When we want to die we think about how to do it ourselves but have you ever thought about the world we live in and how it's trying to kill us?

Think about it. 

• Our food is all GMO'd up and full of pesticides and herbicides that are POISON to our bodies
• Fast food (and prepared food) are leading causes of obesity and all the health issues and deaths related to that
• Our water is also full of all sorts of chemicals and harmful substances-
• Chemtrails (yes they are real) are spraying toxic substances into our atmosphere, which then rain down on us and pollute our air, ground and water supply even more
• There is more and more evidence linking vaccines to major health issues
• Our world is full of stress, and stress wreaks havoc on our health
• There are all sorts of electromagnetic waves bouncing around which can give us headaches, nervous system problems and a whole host of other things
• Propaganda from the media, our governments, religion and other groups lead us down paths to self destruction

There's more but these 8 points alone are pretty serious!

What surprises me is that despite everything around us trying to make us sick or outright kill us, we're still here.  It's amazing how strong and resilient our bodies are!

As I started to realize this, I began to understand that it's actually much harder to stay alive than it is to just give in to all this crap and die.  I didn't even have to do it to myself... the world was doing it for me.

Think about that and consider how, despite being assaulted with an environment that's trying to kill you - you're still here.  Pretty amazing.

What to do when you can't hang on another minute

If you've ever wanted to kill yourself like I did, there are moments when you just know you can't hang on anymore and it has to be now.

I felt that way more than once, and as I've said elsewhere one of the things that kept me from going through with it was fear of messing it up.

And on the very worst of the worst days, there were other things that got me through.  Here are a few that might help you out too.  And feel free to add your own suggestions in the comments:

1. Give yourself something to do first.  For me it was eat a final meal, watch one last movie, write a long goodbye letter, take a nap, or any number of other "last" things.  In fact at once time I had a whole checklist of final things I had to take care of before I could go.  Never quite got through it...
2. Watch comedy.  May as well go out on a laugh, right?  I'd watch my favorite funny stuff saying I could go after.  After a while I was happier and decided to put it off one more day.
3. Give yourself a project.  One thing I learned is that I wanted to die more when I was bored.  So I'd give myself a project, even a dumb one to occupy my mind. That usually distracted me from what I was thinking.
4. Go eat protein.  Blood sugar can be insanely depressive and totally whack you out.  Eat something high in protein and low in sugar then check back an hour later.  Hey if you're heading for the end what's one more hour?
5. Call a friend.  Sometimes you really do need someone to talk to and if you pick the right person it can be the difference between staying and going.
6. If you don't have a friend to call or don't trust the ones you have then call a hotline.  They can be really helpful.
7. Stop taking drugs.  Dying is supposed to be a beautiful transition between this world and the next and if you do it while on something you'll miss out.  Plus when your mind is fucked up you can't make a real decision.  So if you're on something then let it wear off before you do anything.  If you need to get help then get help to see you through but delay any action until you're in your own mind.